Set Backs and Starting Over

The best thing about dieting- and something to always remember- is that if you fall off the wagon, you can still get back on. You don't have to drown yourself in misery becuase you just blew everything by eating that cookie and now you'll always be fat and there is NO hope for you, etc, etc. No, no, no... I let myself cheat and I skip workouts but I do feel bad about that. What can I do about it? Make up for it and start over. Last week was really emotional for me and it made dieting and especially going to the gym that much harder! I slacked off towards the end of the week but I did go see my Primary Care doctor and got some Phentermine. He says this is only my "training wheels" for losing weight. He said that he won't let me take it too long and that I have to contribute my part by eating better and going to the gym. I can handle that... I just needed a little help.

Yesterday I saw a TMJ specialist and found out I do not need surgery. I just need a night guard and he's got me on a "soft" food diet. I'm taking Flexeril before bed and around the clock Ibuprophen. Last night I took the Flexeril and I tossed and turned and clinched my teeth like crazy. So far it's not doing much good. I see my dentist on Thursday to get my night guard though. Yesterday all I ate was a piece of whole wheat toast with natural peanut butter- and a slice of cheese. I went to the gym, did 200 crunches and ran on the treadmill for 16 minutes before my Yoga class. It was a good class, I felt strong and good. The only bad part was being able to see myself in the mirror. I look so gross.

Good news- I got on the scale this morning and I'm at 166. Still not good but the furter I get away from 170 the better. I'm screaming and running from 170! You are the only person I've told my true weight. Don't you feel special?

Today I had some yogurt for breakfast and then I took my Phentermine at 10am. I just had this HUGE starving food attack but I think it's passing. During the attack, I called my husband to see if he wants to go eat an organic lunch. So we'll do that in an hour or so. I don't feel guilty eating there becuase the food is So good for you and it's fresh and they serve small portions so you don't waste any food. I am exicted for Jeremiah to try it out too. Glenda is out today so no working out at lunch. It's not like I can't still go without her but I am so hungry that I could eat my desk. I'll make up for it by going to Yoga tonight- with a new teacher that I've never had! Scary! Exciting! Woooo!!

Sorry it took me so long to post again but it was hard to bring myself to get accountable here. I can't lie to you- that would defeat the purpose!